perfectionism

Dearest Readers,

I have a bit of a confession to make …..

Something that’s been troubling me for quite some time now ….

I haven’t been entirely open with you.

In fact, you might even say I’ve been holding back on you – keeping all my best thoughts and ideas to myself.

I feel like I owe you an apology. I’m sorry – sorry I haven’t put all my efforts and passions in to this site. You see, I started KSW eighteen months ago, with BIG plans and HUGE intentions. It was going to be something fun, something fresh, something personal, something wonderful. Together we were going to try new things, share our stories, and make a difference in our lives and the lives of those around us. But I let my inhibitions and fear of making mistakes get the best of me. I resisted sharing too much. Sure, I tested the waters, I dipped my feet, I tried ever so slightly to get a sense of what it would be like if I were to go all the way.

But the truth is, I’m a bit shy about putting myself out there, wearing my heart on my sleeve for each of you to see. I’m also afraid. Afraid, my ideas will not be good enough, my crafts will not be cute enough, my posts will not be witty enough, my pictures will not be creative enough.

I guess I’ve just been afraid of letting you get to know Me. For those of you who’ve followed for some time you may have noticed a change in the posts over the last two months. Slowly, they are becoming more personal. I credit this to the wonderful friendships I’ve made with many of you. I found a quote tonight, Friends are those with whom we feel comfortable enough to ‘think out loud‘. And I think it sums it up perfectly. The more I get to know you, the more we become friends instead of strangers the more comfortable I feel with each of you and the more I want to share with you.

From now on, I’m going to Think Out Loud. I’m going to fill my posts with my thoughts, my passions, my fears, my loves, my crazy ideas {CAUTION: I have tons of them}, all of it. And just see how it goes. It might not be perfect, it may not always be beautiful, but it will be Me.