Life is Better with Friends

Life is better with friends

29 months ago I left behind life as I had come to know it, to embark on a new journey. A journey, I had dreamed of since the moment my first child was born. It was a huge step, one that involved flying across oceans, saying goodbye to friends who had become family, shedding my identity and moving to a place where I knew no one.

Life should have been wonderful, I had everything I had ever wanted. A handsome, albeit absent husband. Three wonderful, very active children. A home I could finally call my own. A colorful city just waiting to be explored.

Still, something was missing. A hole that grew bigger and demanded more of my attention than I wanted to give it. A hole, I started to fall in to … sacrificing happiness in other areas of my life for all the time I spent focusing on how large it was becoming.

It’s been a long, slow crawl to get where I am today. It has not been easy. In fact, it has been incredibly lonely. But, I am finally on the edge of something wonderful, peeking in, dipping my toes and testing the waters. I’m so excited to say, the water feels great. I’m this <> close to diving in and all I can say, is ….

Life is certainly better with friends!!!

And you wonderful ladies have been such an important part of this realization, I don’t know what I would have done without you! Please accept this Big GIANT {{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}} from me!! And if you’re willing, leave me one of your own in the comments. It’s a love fest y’all and everyone’s invited.

I think I am finally able to cast my worries aside and blog from my heart, finally able to talk to you as if we were the bestest of friends because in my eyes we already are!! and I hope you feel that way too.

Mwah, I love you guys!

Life is more important than fear

Our Bounty

Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.

~ Ambrose Redmoon

My mind has always been a basket of dreams. Dreams so big that stretch so wide, no one person could ever fulfill them all. But lately, my path towards these dreams is becoming more clear. Each idea fitting together like the pieces of a puzzle.

It’s as if each new step I am supposed to take illuminates before me, just as my foot hits the ground. It’s exciting, its exhilarating, its nothing short of pure magic and the Grace of God. I’m in awe and while fearful, I am courageous. The final outcome far outweighs the discomfort it will take to get there. I believe with all my heart that something wonderful is about to happen.

As I accept each of my new gifts and relish in the awesomeness of it all, I find myself coming across another and then another, like dandelions in a field just waiting for me to pick them. Suddenly I know, these dandelions are meant for jam.

Each one forming together to make a life so sweet it tastes like jelly, excuse me as I take some time to spend with my loves, their sticky fingers and their  jammed up faces. Life is very good.

Anything wonderful happening in your life right now? How have you been blessed recently?

Do What You Can

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Every now and then, I just need someone to stop me from whatever it is that I am doing and say these words to me. I thought about setting a recurring reminder on my phone, but I’d so much rather it be you. Would you be so kind? Do you need a reminder of your own? I’d be happy to return the favor. ♥♥♥

And it’s all OK.

I just had to tell you, this was the best week I have had in a really long time.

Not because anything fabulous happened this week. In fact, in reflection it was an all around gloomy sort of week. Double ear infections, nightmares, children to afraid of the dark to stay in their own beds, a husband who’s gone, unplanned expenses maxing out my credit card, a body that wasn’t willing to work out at the potential I would like it to.

But somewhere in the midst of all that. I began to notice a change.

Somewhere inside of me. That instead of wallowing in all of the sad & bad, had decided instead to relish the good.

I marveled at how capable of a mother I really am.

Staying up all night for 3 nights in a row, taking 3 kids to the pediatrician.
Managing to fit in a full week of homeschool lessons. Making home cooked meals every night. Baking cookies with the kids and planting special herbs we’ll use to make ice cream this summer (cinnamon basil & spearmint).

Disciplining without being mean.

Having an indoor camp out.
The list goes on and on …

I also gave myself permission to do something I don’t normally do.
I put my wants first and stopped listening to my “outside self” when I felt overwhelmed.

Definition: Outside Self- You know, the “you”, you share with the world versus the real you on the inside.

Outside self: “It’s late, let’s just get take out.”
Inside self: “Um, Noooo. Will takeout help you lose those 30 pounds you’re so hung up on? You don’t even like the taste of those new fries in canola oil.”
“I thought you liked making healthy meals for your family?”

Outside Self: “Hey wait, I do like creating things in the kitchen!”

Things like:

Blueberry Coconut Whole Grain Muffins
Chocolate Chip Pecan Cookies
Cherry Vanilla Smoothies

(recipes coming soon to a blog near you)

ahh, listening to that inside voice is so much more wonderful than my outside self.

And while I won’t pretend to be cured completely, hey I’m sure I will occasionally fall back in to my old habits. I’m confident I can find a way to make my outside self and my inside self coexist peacefully. Maybe even share the same wants, needs and values?

Alright, now it’s your turn. Tell me the truth, when is the last time you took a peek at the you on the inside? How much different is the “outside you” from the “inside you”? I’ll share my differences in an upcoming post and I’d like to challenge you to do the same.